_fairyland_
4/29/2005 08:54:00 PM
Friday, April 22, 2005
had been rather bz for da past wk or so.da same n borin routine lor,wad else...haix.actually din wanna update blog 2dae but changed my mind.these tots are now in my head again n tis time,i wanna vent dem out! x(
seriously,i tink tat i m veri useless.i knda hate myself.why cant i b sum1 beta?i wanna strive for da beta.everything,includin me but i seem to b walkin in circles,at da same spot.or mayb i m retreatin?haix.why m i lidat?i m truly of no use rite?wad's so wrong wif me?i wan n i nid ppl to point my faults out...!ani1 wanna help me?tis is a bleak world.so so bleak.i m nth but juz a human livin arnd in tis vast world.
oh the girl in da mirror...sometimes how i adore u.sometimes how i pity u.sometimes hw i dislike u.
but wad can i do?i juz hav 2 accept all these rite?n i will b tryin 2 climb up tis mountain but each time i m gonna reach da summit,i wld slip n fall back to where i was n i hav to climb up all over again ---- strugglin
_fairyland_
4/22/2005 11:04:00 PM
Sunday, April 10, 2005
hmmx...reali has been in despressed mood recently...arghx.hw much do i hate tis kind of feelin...!i wanna get rid of tis feelin!but juz wen i tink i hav gotten rid of tis depressed feelin,i realised tat it has not leave me...at all.haix.suppose its all my fault yea?coz i allowed myself to b sad. x( i wanna b happi,cheerful again.wish i can get thru tis sOoN...!blehx.
mid year exmas startin in 2 weeks time. __determination//hardwork//confidence//concentration__
i can get thru all these...rite?seriously,i duno.i keep tellin myself "i can get thru these" but will tat b wad's gonna happen?m i lyin to myself?perhaps its all my fault...da prob mayb lies in me...mayb da solution is in me...ahhh...i m reali tinkin alot recently n mayb a little too much goin thru tis little brain of mine? x_x
_fairyland_
4/10/2005 06:00:00 PM
Thursday, April 07, 2005
it was like so fast tat da wkn was over n sch daes were gonna start their routine again.den nw,its thurs n its gonna b wkn soon.da world seems to be movin veri fast in front of me.da speed is so fast tat i feel so giddy at times. =S
well...tis week rather slack lor.no h/w den i was hangin arnd everydae aft sch wif peeps.haha.2dae wen queensway shoppin cntr wif frens.bought fbt shorts.dey sae fbt shorts nt gd.shld buy nike or da other brands. =X lolx.heck den ken n i wen jec coz we promised our frens tat we wld meet dem dere.for no reason.lolx.okae...wen we were all gathered,we listened to mp3.our frens bring de wor.i m innocnet.lolx.aft tat we decided to take neoprint!we wen to imm.da journey to imm was kinda fun. =) heex.we had fun.i suppose lotsa fun...?haha.oh ya,n da neoprints turned out well...!even an ugly ger lyk me look presentable.LoLx! moral of da story: 2dae is a great day!both during sch time n aft sch... ;D hahax.
i shld nt bother myself wif things n ppl who r nt worth my concern n make myself sad.i hav seen thru certain things n ppl.n tis stinks...lots!
_fairyland_
4/07/2005 07:37:00 PM
Wednesday, April 06, 2005
[i was updatin ytd but halfway thru,dere was illegal operations so all gone.here i m,typin all over again]
it has been over a mth since i last updated.wow,time reali do passes veri quickly.but sometimes it passes so qucikly tat i hate it. xP tis past mth had been okae - had ups n dwns n monotonous times...events,ppl's stories,tots,feelins,etc...seems like alot goin on huh?lolx. =S
too much stuff to write...so guess i shall nt write.lazy too...its quite late le.heex.
__life - abit rough;happi;sad;enjoyin;bleak;stressed;
_fairyland_
4/06/2005 09:43:00 PM
